Michael Cohen, Redemption story

Today many Americans like myself witnessed the testimony of mr Michael Cohen. It was an interesting testimony, not so far as what Cohen revealed but more in how congress questioned him. Even in this shameful state, Mr. Cohen is still of massive interest to everyone, as most of congress wanted to label him as a liar, undermine his moral character, and continually express the gravity of his mistakes. Congress seemed split into two parts, the Dems who were actually looking for useful information and the GOP who wanted to point out Michael Cohen's character flaws, over and over and over again. I see the importance in this to a degree, but I don't find it to be very helpful during a testimony, but then again, most of those GOP guys seem pretty spineless so they're most likely doing this to try and throw a smoke bomb to divert attention away from anything of use that Cohen could let us learn about the Trump administration. If you don't know what I'm talking about, a similar perspective to the GOP is seen in this article,   except here they are more worried that client/attorney relations will deteriorate due to the testimony by Cohen. This is just downright absurd, as in no way can Cohen's case be applicable to the general...

So what was revealed? Well we learned that non-disclosure agreements (NDA's) were frequently used by the president and still are presently. We learned that Trump and his cronies used fake documents to take out a bank loan to use for a bet on the Buffalo Bills. We learned of million dollar and billion dollar agreements with non-American entities like the bank in Kazakhstan and the Russian mobsters at Bayrock. And we learned that congress expects Cohen to take the fall for his beloved President, stay silent, and take the blame for all that is wrong with our circle of sin in the white house. I think anyone watching the testimony who anything above an 80 IQ will notice how overplayed and over defensive the GOP look here... Although they will still claim that Cohen's actions were only for his own gain. Obviously, they were not, as the guy was the one saving Trumps ass for the last decade.

For a full run down of the events leading to Trumps failed Moscow deal check this article 
https://www.washingtonpost.com/politics/2018/11/29/events-that-lead-trumps-abandoned-moscow-deal-michael-cohens-latest-plea-agreement/?noredirect=on&utm_term=.e9f8533b53ba

I have to say though, Cohen is a real redemption story. His calmness is not only cause of a natural demeanor, it is because his mind is set on presenting the truths he never could have if he continued being one of Trumps henchmen. Now though, he has the opportunity to do this and he is using it with all his might before he is sent to prison, separated from his family. I don't know what to do with the knowledge he provided us with other than write up a blog post about it but I hope to God that Mueller is trimming the fat on his case because we can't let spineless idiots govern us any longer. America is a place of real value and these guys are tossing it into the trash just so they can enjoy a nice stay at a fancy trump hotel.  

The Need for Art. Artistic Practice Falling off the Map

Without artistic practice our economy would fall off the map and lose its innovation. For instance, we can create well made technology but without an artistic practice behind it, how is it different from the Chinese or Russian made model? In the age of many, where the multitude has swallowed the leviathan once (world war 2) and believes now that they do not need God to wrestle the beast into submission. Well unfortunately, we are living in an era of superstates that have more industrial power and man power than any other society in the world. Collectively we are an industrial machine pumping out trash all of a sudden. Wasn't steel and iron an important thing? I guess not, hmm, this plastic version is pretty much the same thing, and hey, I don't think it would be possible for me to hurt myself with this thing either.

With art though, we can step through our shadow into new territory, not the realm of plastic nonsense, laziness and lack of discipline. When we say hey, are you there? We get a voice of a reason in response. Art is body hurt, and that's a problem. Many artists have intense fantasies that can cut like a knife through space. It's a feverish megalomania. But when they are accepted and given time to understand their Art with others, the artist can be something more, they can represent culture as a foil to the political representation. These work hand in hand to preserve peace but also to direct the train of imagination into new directions, away from the state of war.

Grades and evaluation are also a problem for the massive super state. We like to make out that there are many opportunities within the massive super state but in reality their are only two choices. The super state is composed of two choices 1) Follow closely and receive opportunity 2) Leave the state and find opportunity. I'll let you in on hint, I chose option 2.

The artist can attempt choice one but it is unlikely that this will actually satisfy the artist, especially if they begin to notice their freedom being threatened ie. they create and the creation is met with resistance. Resistance is meant to instill submission and for the lone artist, this can have major consequences. Overall aesthetic life is threatened by this trend of resistance between artistic creation and industry, and this may be because it is difficult to build institution about something that can be ridiculed and praised at the same time. Aesthetic is connected to sensuality and lifestyle, which have something to do with culture, I don't really know what this connection is yet but it's probably a bunch of these sensualitys together used to stimulate our train of imagination.

To finish off this thought, Art is not only a luxury. It is a need for human society but, this need should be tracked by the pulse of the economy and mixed with disciplinary skill ultimately devoted to a craft. Proceeds from this can benefit the economy and generate value for goods created.

Possessions and Sleep Parlysis

Possessions

So these are the spirits of objects with and without life that have the ability to control or tamper with a persons mental state. Anything made of material has a spirit and it is the collection of spirits that also lead to greater possessions. Within human society these possessions have appeared as devils and other sorts of monsters that claim the human mental psyche, preventing normal behavior. Other examples of possessions in human society are the religious kind, which are allowed by law in this country (USA), and are dealt with if unstable in a private manner.

A more current example is that of therapy where a person becomes possessed by their mental state and is unable to break free without some guidance about what is causing the disturbance within themselves. Normally though this guidance is only sought after and that is why most of these possessions are similar to those of a religious kind, in that they are facilitated in a private manner. We have had a large succession of mental hospitals, therapy offices and psychiatry offices in this country and their popularity only seems to grow.

This need for privacy is respected in society because mass possession is not often thought about, even though it is becoming more of a discussion in the post-WWII world. People are given their rights for liberty and this is of much more importance than the possibility of something that can chain our mental state. These bindings that are in response to possessions are known as laws, and they are bounded by reason including reason of different states of possessions.

Many laws are not discussed or thought about by the public but for those in power they are revised constantly and acted upon through the justice department, the police, private investigations, and the federal bureaus including all persons of the law. Local organizations also develop policy of etiquette between themselves and their community's of operation. In times of great misfortune though the community may operate to develop with organizations what policies they have in contract with one another to prevent shortcomings in the future. Revolt could be another answer by the community but if sustained for too long will self-destruct.

A more medical case of possession is that of sleep paralysis which is a case that is still untreated in the western world. If we look to recent human conceptions of this possession their is a fascination that seems to harken back to possessions of the devil as well. John Henry Fuseli's painting of the incubus sitting on the woman with the nightmare represented by the horse in the curtains captured the attention of all the world and still serves as an effective interpretation of this possession. But is there anyway to treat this mental state? By introducing some new terms I think we can better explain the problem of sleep paralysis. The psychologist Wilhem Reich describes the importance of maintaining a balanced sexuality to explain his functionalism of the orgone, or the orgastic potential of a living organism. The orgone is a type of energy related to our drive and by misdirecting it we can cause neurosis for our self. Reich attributes this misdirection by an armor which humans create for themselves which the drive has to break through to continue momentum. Here is a picture of the functionalism of the orgone. The dot represents sexual energy and see how the drive splits into two arrows which are then met by an armor or flow out into space through time.

My interpretation of the causal issues behind sleep paralysis is a sexual one because I do see how some neurosis could be attributed to sexuality, but as opposed to Reich I do not see it as being attributed to all neurosis. For this case though, yes it does. The victim, who perceives themselves to be subjected to perpetual outside sexual force, would most likely begin to view sexuality as something outside of themselves. I have been told on a couple occasions now of people seeing small gremlin like forms that chew fingernails or make strange noises while the victim of this mental possession lies unable to move their body. This drives the mind into a state of fear that during regular times of day is repressed by reality. In darkness form is much desired because there is fear in the emptiness of the darkness. Many war veterans are afraid of the dark because they understand the illusion of its emptiness, they have been attacked when they least expected it, or they were trained to be awoken by the slightest sound even when there is nothing to see.

This force does not necessarily even have to be real, a person suffering could have no sexual partners. The more removed from reality though the more difficult it becomes to explain this possession of sexuality, and the stronger the possession is. The only way to re-order this mental state would be by the incorporation of time towards accepting yourself as you currently are.  This is definitely something that should be studied further and more data should be collected on different cases.

Placing yourself against time. Predicting time. Part One

Humans all the time are attempting to predict random outcomes in their life. In many ways humans place a large amount of actions that they can perform as unable or undo-able. This is because of human environments made to direct involuntary will and helps to also reinforce it. What I mean is regardless of what people believe, if they never act than that has no matter. What they think is only within themselves so its impact is only within itself. The more the thought interacts and generates an action, the more outside of itself the though, or the more communal viability it has.

What's interesting now is that people will in certain circumstances place on themselves even more constraints than necessary, so that they may possibly be rewarded with more acceptance from the state in the future. This demonstrates a linear thinking which links progress of human behavior to progress of civilization. and takes its place next to philosophy's that equate human desire as negative. Desire should not be quenched but it does need direction which can be shown to it from many trajectories.

Communities come from generative thoughts which spur not only the voluntary motion but also the motion vitale. This motion of good was picked up by Thomas Hobbes in his book the Leviathan. As he describes in his Trayne of Imaginations, experiences make Imagination which are used for creation as a consequence to combat the decaying sense. Motion vitale is the voluntary motion that can either be good or evil and responds to actions of delight and pleasure or offense and molestation. It generates appetites that than accumulate into a will, which then moves to deliberation. It is only here in deliberation that one can develop his passion. The Will is the last appetite before Deliberation and the Development of Passion. Once you are here you can view the vast absurdities of man, the only creature subject to absurdities (this was a belief of Hobbes). It goes without saying, that "Know Thyself" or interpreted by Hobbes as "Read Thyself" is truly the form of authority in human civilization, the ability to acknowledge the self, it is to recognize the artificer. And then we can discover shared authority and witness all the overlapping frameworks of man and material all converging into one dabble of ketchup paste. In the background though, we see Prometheus looking forward proudly even until his eternal doom.

But before we come to myth, Causality has been reached into our Predicting Time method. This is the key. I will end it here because Causality needs its own article, possibly in the future.

Sodium Lauryl Sulphate my baby girl

Sodium Lauryl Sulphate is an industrial cleaner manufacturers put in many toothpaste products, including the one I use (which is now in the trash) Crest whitening with baking soda and peroxide.  I found this out a while back when about a week and a half ago when I had some mouth sores. These were not from using the toothpaste but when I got cholera (or something like cholera) and spent an entire night hosing down the toilet from my top and bottom ends. The shit looked like rice water and the diarrhea lasted a long ass time, I also couldn't store water in my body so that's why I think it's cholera. I'm not in the United States either in case you are wondering,I'm in Africa currently,

Anyway these sores were hurting so I checked on how to treat them and my buddy sodium lauryl sulphate popped on the screen, with a couple articles recommending not to use toothpase with this ingredient as it may make the sore worse. I then, this morning was watching a million dollar extreme video. At the end of the video there's a big chunk of text that Sam probably wrote, about the downfall of Western Civilization. In the paragraph he brings up toothpaste and gum recession and SLS again. It felt way too coincidental so my toothpaste is now trashed.

I also found another website that has a bunch of information on all the ingredients for a bunch of different cosmetic products and rates them on their danger to humanity from like 1 to 8 I think. the website is www.ewg.com and you can look up what products you use and the fucked up effects they can do to you.

Redemption of self after college. Distance from the classroom. And subtle rambling

The blank page of this document is startling. I wish there were lines or something else to cover up this bright whiteness. Well, there, these words are making it appear a bit more tolerable.

I am a bit disappointed that I won't be able to take any classes this semester but this is probably for the best. These are an experience of the past and with my graduation being just around the corner, they can not continue for much longer. Still though, my love for learning makes it hard to distance from a classroom, even though most of the learning I have retained in life has been from my own experiences outside of the classroom, I still cling to it like an oyster and his shell. I enjoy the college fear of speaking out in seminars, the emotions of people willing to lash out at any moment. The classroom for these last couple of years has been less of a place of learning and more a ring for boxing, with ideas of course. Most of the time I did not speak my ideas that I had about things like Foucault's biopower or how to effectively fix gender inequality. No, for the most part I stayed silent in class and instead of speaking, pondered how animalistic we are. Not barbaric, no, barbarism would imply that we are still human, no. I really do mean close to animals in communication, emotions, computation of emotions and so an and so forth. This was a large takeaway from my last 3 and a half years of classes.

College turns anyone from a gifted soul to a soulless tool. In the US system, teachers are held to impossible standards, only to increase the bredth of their topics almost endlessly, while showing the students just how pliable the will of an academic is. And don't get me started on scientific journals, publishing companies, and the like. They are Newspeak, and unfortunately for them, people will never speak like that garbage. At first I liked scientific papers, or I forced myself to, so that I could get through these last couple of years. In normal circumstances I would not have let myself been so pushed around but because of my tumultuous experiences in late highschool, my fathers pressure, and my want to honor my mother, I put through with it and all the tower climbing that came with it. Now though, As I finish up my final semester, I'm ready to change positions from defensive to offensive. This, I believe, is important in life. If you can change and understand how and why you change you can maker better and more informed decisions. This is why I can not stand the "stock market". The stock market, even with all the information that is about how to read it, understand it, and predict it, still continues to misguide our society. People, even the best, fall again and again on blatant chance with their money and I think that this fucks up our culture. There are many guys (especially in the mgtow movement) who are obsessed with crypto currency and trading stocks, investing yada yada yada. What I'm interested in is What the fuck do you plan to do with the money afterwords? Great, perhaps you can make good money through these, dare I say, very far removed from reality decisions, that somehow impact our entire economy, but then what is the goal? To continue to overload our culture with useless spending, fried food, clogged arteries, fake tits and gas guzzling engines. That's not freedom to me, that's just Vanity Fair, a disgusting array of worldly pleasures that satisfy our fears. This comes from a severe lack of self-assessment and possibly regret. I don't have a solution to fix this other than, people learning how to fit time into their lives for processing and reflection. Without it there is a possibility that we all will suffer.

Entering the flow state. Methods of blogging. And Making Space for Ones Livelihood.

January 20th 2019.

Sometimes I feel so high without even smoking anything. Sitting and using all of this technology, it mocks my intelligence. Like I'm schitzophrenic with all of this information. I don't know how smart a high IQ is for you anymore because it'll just block out your own narrative. I get so high when I'm flowing in my narrative. It's a warm feeling that starts in my ass and moves up my spine to the top of my head. So good. Like someones pouring hot coffee down my back. Not very hot coffee. More like luke warm coffee. People like my thoughts though, regardless of how I beat myself over my perfectionism, people genuinly want to be in contact me but in a different way. That's why I wanted to start Tim's E Capsule. To help me isolate my voice but in the process also share it with those who are interested. It's not an imitation game. It is a place for me to be myself in basic form. Like being high in public and its ok. That's what Tim's E Capsule is or actually, that's what I want it to be. Like being content and very stoned in public. I think that I am Rated R So I want to put that up on the site as well to make sure people understand what's the nature of the beast here, this is not something that you should let ittt bitty children read because that's not what Tim's E Capsule is about. Maybe if something is written here and you want to share it with your child than that's up to you but I can't be responsible for that action. I mean like, this is me just using the internet at its full capacity, in its full greatness. We wouldn't want to see only half of mike tyson fight in the ring now would we? This is full bodied spirit of a cigar of myself in writing, art, symbols, and induced visualizations or however the ideas jump from me to my audience. But yes, the e capsule has been a project in the works of mine for ahwile and I think it's because many people pushed this on me but I don't think that when people came to me with the idea I was really ready. People can see potential but they can never know what it's like to be in that persons body. One think I needed was the flow state. Without flow state I have just loose pieces of a mirror floating in an endless ocean and my fear is a prison. This is important from time to time I think. Especially when you don't feel like yourself. I struggled with this a lot. A lot. A lot. A lot. And I can't really explain why because I have gotten better I think (haha yeah you have motherfucker) but time is always there. But it's coming along. slowly but surely the network is expanding beyond my mother and her basement! How can I end this note. hmmm. I don't really know. Seems tough I think. to start this one off as a really big filler for the beginning of the notes section of the website (which is how I want to do my blog posts). This isn't because I want to use notes to justify sloppiness it's more comfortable for me to express my thoughts like this because my mind naturally moves towards intense analyzation that needs a rock solid philosophy. I don't want blogs to be like that. More fluffy and soft like the wings of... what was the one pokemon with the super fluffy wings.. I'll look it up. His name is swablu. Yes like a swablu I want my blogs to be like