The Eternal Desk; The Reversal Circus of Life

The desk will not change. Forever I am, Forever I will be at this desk. This desk this desk, away from violence. Away from beckoning anger. Away from ease. Away from magic. Away from dichotomy. Away from divergence.

It may be around a nest of rats. It may be floating in sludge. It may have nothing but charcoal and paper. It may be surrounded by loudness. It may be under siege. It may be misunderstood.

But still the desk will not change.

The time will not bend to the desk, it is the other way around. What has been done has only been at the desk and can only be at the desk.

What has been an illusion for the longest time has only been allowed to be an illusion because of the desk. Without the desk, there would be nothing.

What has been a cave has only ever not been a cave because of the desk.

What has been known as reality has only been dubbed thee because of the desk.

Birthed by Thucydides and Aurelius, the emotion of loneliness, timeless loneliness.

Disrespected by the future, by the skin grafted from Adams underbelly.

Grafted onto a corpse of rotting, kicking, screaming diseased children.

The tree is knotty and many low hanging fruits droop only to be fed on by the lowliest of worms.

The roots push into the dirt, giving this circus life.

 

Advice for those with Personality Disorders/Bipolar Disorder

This is my own personal advice so don't take it to be 100% effective or anything but my advice to those suffering form personality disorders or bipolar disorder is to learn another language.

The benefits of learning another language are many. It can help you get a job, pretty much everywhere needs bilingual workers now so you'll have an edge over other people. It also opens the doors to another culture that you can now communicate with because you have learned the language. Now, I'm not saying go run off to Bolivia and ditch your old life, but try to learn a language that could be practical in your current life. In this way it will be easier for you to practice with other people in the radius of where you are living. Luckily for me, I live in an area with people who speak a wide array of different languages so I can practice languages like Farsi here. If you don't have anyone other than your own native language to speak to then look online for pdf's or audio files for a language that has literature you would like to read. This way you can comfortably enjoy these works in their native tongue and pick up on the full intention of the author.

When I have spoke to other people who are bilingual they have told me that when they speak in another language they embody a different personality. They also told me some interesting things about their dreams. When they have a dream in another language than the one they speak most often it is a drastically different experience than their regular dreams. People who speak in two languages often do not report experiencing this.

If anything it can be a regular morning routine or something, to wake you up and keep working at. There are lots of different ways to study with flashcards and software but I think people can figure that out for themselves. My personal favorite way is to have a conversation with someone. This helps me gauge my actual aptitude in using the language. But I know of people who learned entirely by listening to audio everyday for a period of time.

Anyways, once you learn a language if you don't practice consistently you will forget how to speak in it. All you need to do is some prepping before hand and you'll be much better. Repetitive practice is the best way to learn a language. Always practice speaking.

Placing yourself against time. Predicting time. Part One

Humans all the time are attempting to predict random outcomes in their life. In many ways humans place a large amount of actions that they can perform as unable or undo-able. This is because of human environments made to direct involuntary will and helps to also reinforce it. What I mean is regardless of what people believe, if they never act than that has no matter. What they think is only within themselves so its impact is only within itself. The more the thought interacts and generates an action, the more outside of itself the though, or the more communal viability it has.

What's interesting now is that people will in certain circumstances place on themselves even more constraints than necessary, so that they may possibly be rewarded with more acceptance from the state in the future. This demonstrates a linear thinking which links progress of human behavior to progress of civilization. and takes its place next to philosophy's that equate human desire as negative. Desire should not be quenched but it does need direction which can be shown to it from many trajectories.

Communities come from generative thoughts which spur not only the voluntary motion but also the motion vitale. This motion of good was picked up by Thomas Hobbes in his book the Leviathan. As he describes in his Trayne of Imaginations, experiences make Imagination which are used for creation as a consequence to combat the decaying sense. Motion vitale is the voluntary motion that can either be good or evil and responds to actions of delight and pleasure or offense and molestation. It generates appetites that than accumulate into a will, which then moves to deliberation. It is only here in deliberation that one can develop his passion. The Will is the last appetite before Deliberation and the Development of Passion. Once you are here you can view the vast absurdities of man, the only creature subject to absurdities (this was a belief of Hobbes). It goes without saying, that "Know Thyself" or interpreted by Hobbes as "Read Thyself" is truly the form of authority in human civilization, the ability to acknowledge the self, it is to recognize the artificer. And then we can discover shared authority and witness all the overlapping frameworks of man and material all converging into one dabble of ketchup paste. In the background though, we see Prometheus looking forward proudly even until his eternal doom.

But before we come to myth, Causality has been reached into our Predicting Time method. This is the key. I will end it here because Causality needs its own article, possibly in the future.