Ambient Occlusion

when I fly.
I hope to stay high
not fall for another kind
nor lose my chance to fancy
a life that has not been lived
yet now nor ever for eternity.

only at one time
would I be given the chance to escape
our maze of deceit
and foggy misty nights.
still I write
on every foggy misty night.
still I write
on every foggy misty night.

And upon chance I can stay a heathen
but never for more than a sudden bout
before I reclaim myself and my demon
as separate but together, cherished on a boat.

the air breaths heavy
upon my burdened shoulders.
I know this heaviness
is the very same as my ancestors
only now they smile when looking at humanity
to see how we have played the hare and escaped its scattered shores
with wit and knowledge and all things unified.

spoken like a poet
unable to be rid of the images
in his head
but without skill his experience yearns
and so he dives head first with bristling horns

it preserved him in his own right.

so as to serve all-powerful-strength
another cold night,
without the rain & the snow.
From our natural beginnings we have separated
and my only show
has been
gold.

So we say no idea is worth our time,
contemplation, or execution.
Yet we run our energy constantly
so that our hair may stand on end
when reading buttons pushed over
daisy's ink pen.

So this has been a cover up
only a show of sorts
a mock execution if you will.
It is the death in laughter
and the wince of pain after
the show must continue
our adaptation is our virtue
and so let your imagination spark bright!

Elucidating The Western Pattern Diet

       Western society has many health concerns associated with its diet including its obesity, heart disease, colon cancer, diabetes and Crohns disease (Tung 2001, Heidemann 2008). These concerns are intricately connected to what has been called the western pattern diet (WPD) and which consists of fried food, red meat, pre-packaged food and high fat dairy products. The meat industry and dairy industry have made large profits in the last couple of decades and with accumulated capital they have also gained power over Western society’s food landscape. These animal products have major repercussions for our health simply because of the portions at which many Westerners consume them. Most diet professionals claim the importance of meat and dairy in a healthy diet, and this is further embedded in our culture with our incessant enjoyment of consuming animal products. It is because of Western society’s desire for animal products which ties a Western lifestyle to unsustainable methods of animal husbandry, where meat consumption has grown to such a height that we have no attachment whatsoever to the animals involved. This unsustainable meat industry has migrated to other food items, covering them in plastic, canning them, and synthesizing them in various ways so that demand rates can forever increase alongside production rates. Unfortunately, this conflicts with nature because eventually this demand will taper out, especially as consumers begin to miss what the real food was once before. This conflict can be observed in the rhetorical question of whether corn in the can is the same on the cob. It is undeniable that those who say no and those who say yes are two different populations of consumers, each needing their own representation.

To end this, We have known not to eat this kind of food for centuries now as was pointed out in Deut. 12. 23. "Eate not the Bloud, for the Bloud is the Soule; that is, the Life."
We should think of a world where we no longer smite omnem animam viventem, like God told Noah after he exited the Arke.

05/04/2019

There is a conspiracy out there. Somewhere in the void of life. This conspiracy is held among humanity, that somewhere there is a greater unknown power, whether this be the Christians or the Environmentalists, it seems that those of great education in either body of knowledge hold the belief for a Reckoning of their own sorts to be true. This conspiracy that has already defined its final causal event for the future of humanity is either a complex spiritual experience of Judgement upon a ‘Soul’ or an addition to the many multitude of the earth including past and future ancestors. At the time of writing this, the end has already happened, and we are now of a new earth, after this catastrophic event.

Graduated. Now What?

I just had my pass meeting with my advisors. There are a couple small tweaks I need to do with my final thesis paper ie. adding a table of contents, yada yada, but for the most part I'm finished with my Division III. My professors asked me if I wanted to ring the bell, which is a tradition at my school. I declined, as the bell has been ringing relentlessly this week and personally, I find it pretty annoying.

Feels good to get this research or whatever I created out of the way. I decided to not take such a scientific angle with what I am working on, and keep it more as a general discussion, since this project relies heavily on social issues. If I were to try and aim my survey at one direct construct it would limit the ability for me to have a more thoughtful discussion behind policy. I can understand why someone would not want to listen to my recommendations (as they are based on general information I collected) but I personally think its better than some economic model that only restricts the conversation into its own parameters.

Probably the best takeaway for myself personally was all the thinking I did of how to organize my study, the flow of the topics etc. All the thinking of this has made me a much better non-fiction writer because I understand time better. It is impossible to sit down and write everything down in one sitting, especially when you haven't done any digging into other crates of information. I learnt how to collect info from other research and my own field research to synthesize a text that could serve as a model for how to conduct ethical social research. This is why I changed the name from "survey" to "report" since survey implies that there is an underlying construct that I am trying to uncover, which was not the case. Instead, I had to adapt my questions to what I was observing so that some kind of numbers could be generated, whether or not they would be used for any specific hypothesis. As my sample increases though, and I ask more questions, come up with better ways to track the natural environment, I will be able to formalize the survey process. I think currently financial data and economic have been mixed inside my head but over time I will untangle these for future study's.

This summer I will be returning to Madagascar with two other researchers, a friend and my brother (maybe) to keep work developing a processing cooperative. I think this blog will turn into more of personal voice of myself, IDK. It's always been challenging to balance active and passive voice in my writing because I really just want to speak from my own context, but then people won't take me as seriously, because I'm just some dumb kid right?

Well I say prove 'em wrong. For all my young readers out there who happened to stumble upon this... Don't be afraid to stick up for your own opinions and beliefs. People will always disagree or debate what you do, but really all that matters is that YOU DO IT. That's the what makes the difference, people discussing what you put out, what you create, all of that in effect can only help you, if of course you are strong enough to take the criticism while still retaining your own core momentum. I started my career without a strong sense of who I was but by this year, I really felt complete. I still care about what people think about what I do (of course) but I also know that these people have their own background and their own motivations, entirely different from my own.

What are my motivations you may ask? I think the best way to summarize my motivation for life is my want to reinvigorate a lifestyle less about the labeling of personal human achievement and more about continuing your ancestry. My family's ties to Madagascar give me a responsibility to the country, especially because of all the different species of animals living their. What kind of project can actually regrow the rainforest though? It's gotta be a creative one, an adaptable one, and a responsible one. It's a tall order but it's what I must do. So there you go, I went with a classic 'destiny' argument to justify my motivation. What's your motivation for what you do?