Showing posts with label spirituality. Show all posts
Showing posts with label spirituality. Show all posts

Tuesday, November 19, 2019

The Eternal Desk; The Reversal Circus of Life

The desk will not change. Forever I am, Forever I will be at this desk. This desk this desk, away from violence. Away from beckoning anger. Away from ease. Away from magic. Away from dichotomy. Away from divergence.

It may be around a nest of rats. It may be floating in sludge. It may have nothing but charcoal and paper. It may be surrounded by loudness. It may be under siege. It may be misunderstood.

But still the desk will not change.

The time will not bend to the desk, it is the other way around. What has been done has only been at the desk and can only be at the desk.

What has been an illusion for the longest time has only been allowed to be an illusion because of the desk. Without the desk, there would be nothing.

What has been a cave has only ever not been a cave because of the desk.

What has been known as reality has only been dubbed thee because of the desk.

Birthed by Thucydides and Aurelius, the emotion of loneliness, timeless loneliness.

Disrespected by the future, by the skin grafted from Adams underbelly.

Grafted onto a corpse of rotting, kicking, screaming diseased children.

The tree is knotty and many low hanging fruits droop only to be fed on by the lowliest of worms.

The roots push into the dirt, giving this circus life.

 


Saturday, May 4, 2019

05/04/2019

There is a conspiracy out there. Somewhere in the void of life. This conspiracy is held among humanity, that somewhere there is a greater unknown power, whether this be the Christians or the Environmentalists, it seems that those of great education in either body of knowledge hold the belief for a Reckoning of their own sorts to be true. This conspiracy that has already defined its final causal event for the future of humanity is either a complex spiritual experience of Judgement upon a ‘Soul’ or an addition to the many multitude of the earth including past and future ancestors. At the time of writing this, the end has already happened, and we are now of a new earth, after this catastrophic event.

Sunday, March 10, 2019

Sudden Realization of meaning

My life for a longtime has felt a void. My last couple years of college were met with enthusiasm but also a despair for my life. This I attribute to the general anxiety of youth and the neglect I faced from my fellow humans in the United States of America. This anxiety is normal and manifests within the youth alongside the many dreams of long summers under shining stars and dancing along beaches. But this neglect, this is a darker force that I can not understand to be reasonable. Aren't we as humans naturally posed to not neglect our youth, and that we should foster in them not empty coddling but motivation? Now though, the youth of our nation are not allowed the time to express thoughts or ideas, given space to examine their surroundings, and are only given the simple right that they can achieve wealth no matter their background. This though omits community and love for your fellow neighbor, and brotherhood outside of the police and the military. Scientists are more focused on finding students who work like factory workers for them, instead of those who can shake the habitual (and not solely for the sake of being contrarian).

There has been a reduction in a belief of this human ability towards ingenuity. We have no care for poetry or personal writings anymore, because we do not understand English unless used without personal style and flair. And our economy can't support our artists anymore as the money is not used for a common-wealth except a common-wealth of those contained within large mega-corporations. Yes, it seems culture and society are dying alongside one another , contained within these brutalist architectural feats, stagnated by the function of life itself and forgetting the faith of humanities virtuous intellect.

 But today I had a spontaneous realization of meaning derived not from reason but emotion. I confronted my inability to neglect those that suffer and my love of human imagination, which I believe to be the best quality of the human mind. Imagination and faith as opposed to neglect is what ultimately saves us all, reason is then applied to an objective and society can make a steps towards a more peaceful globe. I pray for a safe and secure future where we all can support our families and continue this beautiful journey called life. This I believe to be important in our age of transition but if we can stay civil about these decisions we must make, then all our past histories work will not be for nothing.

Sunday, February 17, 2019

Possessions and Sleep Parlysis

Possessions

So these are the spirits of objects with and without life that have the ability to control or tamper with a persons mental state. Anything made of material has a spirit and it is the collection of spirits that also lead to greater possessions. Within human society these possessions have appeared as devils and other sorts of monsters that claim the human mental psyche, preventing normal behavior. Other examples of possessions in human society are the religious kind, which are allowed by law in this country (USA), and are dealt with if unstable in a private manner.

A more current example is that of therapy where a person becomes possessed by their mental state and is unable to break free without some guidance about what is causing the disturbance within themselves. Normally though this guidance is only sought after and that is why most of these possessions are similar to those of a religious kind, in that they are facilitated in a private manner. We have had a large succession of mental hospitals, therapy offices and psychiatry offices in this country and their popularity only seems to grow.

This need for privacy is respected in society because mass possession is not often thought about, even though it is becoming more of a discussion in the post-WWII world. People are given their rights for liberty and this is of much more importance than the possibility of something that can chain our mental state. These bindings that are in response to possessions are known as laws, and they are bounded by reason including reason of different states of possessions.

Many laws are not discussed or thought about by the public but for those in power they are revised constantly and acted upon through the justice department, the police, private investigations, and the federal bureaus including all persons of the law. Local organizations also develop policy of etiquette between themselves and their community's of operation. In times of great misfortune though the community may operate to develop with organizations what policies they have in contract with one another to prevent shortcomings in the future. Revolt could be another answer by the community but if sustained for too long will self-destruct.





A more medical case of possession is that of sleep paralysis which is a case that is still untreated in the western world. If we look to recent human conceptions of this possession their is a fascination that seems to harken back to possessions of the devil as well. John Henry Fuseli's painting of the incubus sitting on the woman with the nightmare represented by the horse in the curtains captured the attention of all the world and still serves as an effective interpretation of this possession. But is there anyway to treat this mental state? By introducing some new terms I think we can better explain the problem of sleep paralysis. The psychologist Wilhem Reich describes the importance of maintaining a balanced sexuality to explain his functionalism of the orgone, or the orgastic potential of a living organism. The orgone is a type of energy related to our drive and by misdirecting it we can cause neurosis for our self. Reich attributes this misdirection by an armor which humans create for themselves which the drive has to break through to continue momentum. Here is a picture of the functionalism of the orgone. The dot represents sexual energy and see how the drive splits into two arrows which are then met by an armor or flow out into space through time.


My interpretation of the causal issues behind sleep paralysis is a sexual one because I do see how some neurosis could be attributed to sexuality, but as opposed to Reich I do not see it as being attributed to all neurosis. For this case though, yes it does. The victim, who perceives themselves to be subjected to perpetual outside sexual force, would most likely begin to view sexuality as something outside of themselves. I have been told on a couple occasions now of people seeing small gremlin like forms that chew fingernails or make strange noises while the victim of this mental possession lies unable to move their body. This drives the mind into a state of fear that during regular times of day is repressed by reality. In darkness form is much desired because there is fear in the emptiness of the darkness. Many war veterans are afraid of the dark because they understand the illusion of its emptiness, they have been attacked when they least expected it, or they were trained to be awoken by the slightest sound even when there is nothing to see.

This force does not necessarily even have to be real, a person suffering could have no sexual partners. The more removed from reality though the more difficult it becomes to explain this possession of sexuality, and the stronger the possession is. The only way to re-order this mental state would be by the incorporation of time towards accepting yourself as you currently are.  This is definitely something that should be studied further and more data should be collected on different cases.